poetry battles

this is the part that i

won't remember

tomorrow, this i know,

yet here i am in liminal spaces

thinking liminal thoughts

making liminal decisions that

will somehow hold sway over

mornings and wakings and

all the day's makings

alone in the near dark with

the heavy never closing eyes

and the tension in my jaw

that i can't let loose,

putting two and two together

again, again, a new

unwanted answer found at

every summing. all i want

is you. all i've got is this

thoughts sliding into dreams

this room a crystal facet

of other places

slipping in

and down

away

jumping at a phantom falling.

losing it all. only to gather

the day's unspoken worries

yet again, a bushel of

fretting, thorns and all

unremembered, but not unmarked

more ephemeral than even

the dreams it sparks

When sleep is slow to come

And I am alone

I dream of you;

Not fully, not an actual sleeping dream

But a daydream of you,

Beautiful and pure.

Daydreams come and go with me.

I’m not one to keep my head

Completely in the clouds as I did when I was

A teenager and child.

But you, my love

Are a constant hope, wish, literal dream.

Touching you was bliss,

Your skin so soft and smooth.

Seeing you in person was incredible,

And hearing your voice in my ear

Without the use of technology?

I miss it.

Curled on my side,

(Of course the right side!)

I imagine your arms around me

And sharing my pillows as you hold me.

I don’t cry.

But it’s a near thing.

If I weren’t so anchored here

And, well, my health--

If those didn’t stand in my way

I’d be out there. Reality be damned,

I want to be where you are.

Always.

Reality getting in the way

Of my dreams? Is a complete

Nightmare.

I miss you,

I want you,

I need you.

Distance should be easier bridged by now,

Being the early 21st century and all.

I want my Star Trek future,

Replete with teleportation and

You.

It’d be a dream come true.

I drift off, finally,

Your name a whisper on my lips.

Nothing seems more impossible than

Doing things without you.

But I continue on, day by day,

Waiting. For you.

Until we are reunited again.